You Name It.

If the word love can be replaced
I don’t want to call it love
Love is a strong word
And I’d rather ignore the thrust

I’m so scared to fall again
Because falling can break me down
Yet I don’t want this admiration to stop
Yes it’s funny, and hazy, and enhancing

I said to myself over and over again
To be very careful with my flimsy heart
I’ve learnt to hide my feelings
And I guess I’ve been too good at it

Conversely, I want to share the things
That’s been pestering me
Since the moment I realize
Your smile brightens up my day

I’ll say no more
Because it will only get more confusing
But those fascinating small eyes
Just won’t let me over you

Yeayeah

Lupakah kamu
Kamupun pernah ucapkan cinta padaku
Meski tak kamu umumkan pada dunia
Tapi kamu bilang tak ada yang seperti aku?

Dan mungkin masih ada diingatanmu
Kata-kata yang kamu rangkai menjadi janji
Lalu kamu lemparkan ke tong sampah
di awal bulan Juli?

Aku tahu
Aku ingat

Dan aku tak terluka
Bila itu maksudmu ketika berkata
Kamu jatuh cinta pada gadis lain
Karena jatuh cinta bukanlah hal terbaik yang bisa kamu lakukan

Sejauh aku tahu,
kamu cuma hebat dalam berdusta

- 010107 -

Ciao

Itulah ujungnya
Aku memutuskan untuk pergi
Tanpa dusta atau pura-pura
Aku tinggalkan semua
Dan berkata ini tlah usai
Karena tentangmu dan untukmu
Yang tersisa hanya kepastian:
Aku salah pernah memilihmu
(Bukan, bukan aku yang menjadi kesalahanmu)

Kamu tidak lagi
Dan tak akan pernah lagi
Istimewa.

- 010107 -

Not Yet

Hey Mr. Smart Man!
Don’t break me down yet
Not now
Not before I dare to say ‘Hello’ to you

Please be patient cuz I’m still pulling my guts together

Queensland in General

You, me
Holding hands
Sometime, somehow
We’ll have a date in Queensland

You Said You'd Stay

Is it too much to ask for
A little space that used to be mine
A little place inside called heart
A spot that once belongs to me

I promise this time I’ll be patient
And I’ll make sure you’ll listen
I’ll trust every lie you claim as the truth
I promise I’ll be nice, I’ll be very quiet

Don’t shake your head
Don’t say you’ll thinking it over

I just need you to keep your promise
Cuz I’ve been holding on to your words
And you said you’d stay
Next to me, you’d stay

I hate to cry, I hate the drama
I don’t want to be mushy and all
Life has been pretty hard
You don’t need to hurt me this way

Don’t sigh, don’t raise your eyebrow
Don’t hold my hand and say you’re sorry

After all I just hope you keep your promise
And with all the words I have faith in
Is there any chance for you to stay?
Cuz some time ago you said you’d stay..

Shallow Man

I said I’ve done with you
But things keep coming back
Over and again in an endless way
I need to get through it

There’s something stuck in my mind
The way you don’t treat me right
And how I want to scream to you
The words I’ve been kept

You won’t ask for forgiveness, I know
You might don’t care at all

No matter how much I hate you
No more hellos, not even a smile
No matter how ugly things go
You just won’t get it
Not in a zillion way

This could be one chance
To make you bleed to death
And you might die slowly
But is it worth to try?

Cuz I have the companion
I even have the whole troop
Or should I just let it pass
And drain my mind away?

You’re too shallow to understand, that’s for sure
But still I’ll spare your life

Even if I detest you
And no more hellos, no more smiles
Until everything gets dreadful
You still won’t get it
Not in a zillion way

The Drought

There are the times
When nothing happens
Surrounded by silence
Alone and lonely

P e r f e c t l y s i n g l e

But however,
there will always be the deluge afterward..

...dia cantik sekali

dia tersenyum
dan dunia bersinar bersama binar di matanya
lalu tawanya yang manis
seperti nyanyian matahari di awal pagi

tersentuh kulitnya, lembut
ingin dan ingin lagi bersamanya
dialah sahabat dan cinta
sempurna seputih salju
sederhana seperti embun

dan setelah kau ceritakan semua itu
kau bilang,
dia cantik sekali

maka akupun patah hati..


-sometimes we just have to let go and face it all–

The Pianist

There is some happiness that couldn’t be owned
Certain happiness that wouldn’t be possessed
The ones that remain only as ecstatic thoughts
Or as a silent sigh when the memories evoked

Like those mesmerizing small eyes,
that adorable mysterious smile,
and the gentle tone on his words
Or even the way he blends himself into the music he plays

Those were the joy I can only dream about
Admiration from distance
Feel it in my melting heart
But not in my longing arms

He’s gorgeous
And I’m blissful just to consented to know him

Why Jealous?

Time goes by
Come on, me
It's no longer appropriate to say
"Move On"

Stop thinking
Start smiling

Twenty Four

Another year passed
And I'm still counting my blessings

Alhamdulillah

Good Morning, Weary

I'm standing at the edge
Thinking about this pledge
The story of those little laughs
And how and what is left

These mouths are on the mute
Fury has forgotten its roots
and maybe I just let you push me over
Hoping it will soon be over

All those shouted opaque words
Do we imply what we say?
The little words that make the heart melt
Is that what we are supposed to felt?

I'm still thinking it over
Over and a little bit closer
The melody just shakes me over
Now how can I make it over
But I love you over and over

My hello is a good morning weary
With the tune that can't come out clearly
It's all tangled and jaded
But not necessarilly faded

I'm not really stay awake
My reasons are just for us sake
And I might as well shout it stiff
Or rather I jump off the cliff

It's just because I just do
Silly but there's nothing I won't do
That is the facts and that is the word
You burry me over and over

Written by Aisyah Iskandar, 21 December 2005. Days of meaningless tears :).

Daydream

You were saying,
"I'm not ready. Here's the condition"
And I tried to do what it takes
To make you lead the way

And then I woke up
A part of me said, "It was only a dream"
Another half said,
"Maybe you'll never be ready, maybe I've always tried too hard"

We were holding hands
Or was that I'm the one who hold your hand?
I protect you from falling
And you stood taller than me

And then I woke up
A part of me said, "It was only a dream"
Another half said,
"Maybe you're always ahead of me, maybe I care too much for you all the time"

I stunned, I asked myself why
I tried to disclose the meanings
And you,
I guess you've decided to be in love with somebody else

Oh well, wake up, me!
It was always only a dream
Don't think too hard, don't wish too high, don't sleep too much
Sometimes dream just does not come true

Kenapa.

Kadang aku berharap, aku tak pernah mengenal kata kenapa.

Somebody, please catch my fall.

Somewhere Beyond The Sea

I know beyond the doubt, my heart will lead me there soon.

Somewhere beyond the sea, or beyond these buildings, far across the continents, or even here right next to me all along.

I know I’ll findout.

..and never again I’ll go sailing.

Stupid Girl

You guys just did it
Made me feel like I was wanted
Like I was needed
Like I was always on your mind

But at the end
It was just an amusement for you
After you ask me to feel
You decide not to feel

Oh you guys all just the same
Lying, pretending, all at your best
And still
I have no right to be mad

I’m sick of this ‘stupid girl’ role
Be the one who got fooled all the time
Got flattered and then left behind
And still, I have no right to be mad

I won’t say “You’ll see”
Because you’re all to blind too see
Surely when I’m the one who’s doing this to you
You’re no stupid, and I’m the bitch

Oh you guys with your words
Or should I say, your deceptions?
Go chickened out all the time
But still, I don’t have the right to be mad


Yes,yes. Untuk yang datang dan pergi. Yang datang hanya saat kesepian. Yang datang karena baru putus. Kemudian menghilang dengan alasan ‘sibuk’. Yang datang hanya karena ingin pelukan. Yang datang hanya karena sedang jenuh dengan sang pacar. Apakah saya hanya sekedar pelipur lara kalian saja? Bagaimana dengan lara saya? Siapa yang mau melipur?

Well, you all can go screw yourself up.Tapi sebelumnya, ijinkan saya berteriak: BRENGSEK!

A Paper Bag, A Joke, and A Friend

A paper bag filled with love
Sent for your familly at home
Screaming the words of confuseness

A joke and a laughter later
A friend said something that made me thinking it over

Oh what the hell
It's ended long ago anyway

Escape

Where the night ends
There I'll be sleeping
Not to think of you
And burn this love to ashes

I'm holding on to the feelings
You don't feel anymore

Pasti

Aku ada, aku mengerti
Ada bisa jadi, ada pasti
Karena hati tak bisa sembunyi
Dan setiap nafas terucap 'Sepi!'

Bertemu denganmu lagi
pasti akan seperti ini
Meskipun tak ingin berfikir
Tapi aku ada, aku tahu pasti

Dan kita akan melangkah pergi
Kita akan pura-pura benci
Menjauh tanpa coba pahami
Yakini itu cuma mimpi

Karena untukku dan untuk diri ini
Ada yang lain yang terbaik
Ingin menyangkal dan berkata mungkin
Tapi lebih baik kubilang pasti

Aku cukupkan, tak ingin lagi sakit hati