The Drought

There are the times
When nothing happens
Surrounded by silence
Alone and lonely

P e r f e c t l y s i n g l e

But however,
there will always be the deluge afterward..

...dia cantik sekali

dia tersenyum
dan dunia bersinar bersama binar di matanya
lalu tawanya yang manis
seperti nyanyian matahari di awal pagi

tersentuh kulitnya, lembut
ingin dan ingin lagi bersamanya
dialah sahabat dan cinta
sempurna seputih salju
sederhana seperti embun

dan setelah kau ceritakan semua itu
kau bilang,
dia cantik sekali

maka akupun patah hati..


-sometimes we just have to let go and face it all–

The Pianist

There is some happiness that couldn’t be owned
Certain happiness that wouldn’t be possessed
The ones that remain only as ecstatic thoughts
Or as a silent sigh when the memories evoked

Like those mesmerizing small eyes,
that adorable mysterious smile,
and the gentle tone on his words
Or even the way he blends himself into the music he plays

Those were the joy I can only dream about
Admiration from distance
Feel it in my melting heart
But not in my longing arms

He’s gorgeous
And I’m blissful just to consented to know him

Why Jealous?

Time goes by
Come on, me
It's no longer appropriate to say
"Move On"

Stop thinking
Start smiling

Twenty Four

Another year passed
And I'm still counting my blessings

Alhamdulillah

Good Morning, Weary

I'm standing at the edge
Thinking about this pledge
The story of those little laughs
And how and what is left

These mouths are on the mute
Fury has forgotten its roots
and maybe I just let you push me over
Hoping it will soon be over

All those shouted opaque words
Do we imply what we say?
The little words that make the heart melt
Is that what we are supposed to felt?

I'm still thinking it over
Over and a little bit closer
The melody just shakes me over
Now how can I make it over
But I love you over and over

My hello is a good morning weary
With the tune that can't come out clearly
It's all tangled and jaded
But not necessarilly faded

I'm not really stay awake
My reasons are just for us sake
And I might as well shout it stiff
Or rather I jump off the cliff

It's just because I just do
Silly but there's nothing I won't do
That is the facts and that is the word
You burry me over and over

Written by Aisyah Iskandar, 21 December 2005. Days of meaningless tears :).

Daydream

You were saying,
"I'm not ready. Here's the condition"
And I tried to do what it takes
To make you lead the way

And then I woke up
A part of me said, "It was only a dream"
Another half said,
"Maybe you'll never be ready, maybe I've always tried too hard"

We were holding hands
Or was that I'm the one who hold your hand?
I protect you from falling
And you stood taller than me

And then I woke up
A part of me said, "It was only a dream"
Another half said,
"Maybe you're always ahead of me, maybe I care too much for you all the time"

I stunned, I asked myself why
I tried to disclose the meanings
And you,
I guess you've decided to be in love with somebody else

Oh well, wake up, me!
It was always only a dream
Don't think too hard, don't wish too high, don't sleep too much
Sometimes dream just does not come true

Kenapa.

Kadang aku berharap, aku tak pernah mengenal kata kenapa.

Somebody, please catch my fall.

Somewhere Beyond The Sea

I know beyond the doubt, my heart will lead me there soon.

Somewhere beyond the sea, or beyond these buildings, far across the continents, or even here right next to me all along.

I know I’ll findout.

..and never again I’ll go sailing.

Stupid Girl

You guys just did it
Made me feel like I was wanted
Like I was needed
Like I was always on your mind

But at the end
It was just an amusement for you
After you ask me to feel
You decide not to feel

Oh you guys all just the same
Lying, pretending, all at your best
And still
I have no right to be mad

I’m sick of this ‘stupid girl’ role
Be the one who got fooled all the time
Got flattered and then left behind
And still, I have no right to be mad

I won’t say “You’ll see”
Because you’re all to blind too see
Surely when I’m the one who’s doing this to you
You’re no stupid, and I’m the bitch

Oh you guys with your words
Or should I say, your deceptions?
Go chickened out all the time
But still, I don’t have the right to be mad


Yes,yes. Untuk yang datang dan pergi. Yang datang hanya saat kesepian. Yang datang karena baru putus. Kemudian menghilang dengan alasan ‘sibuk’. Yang datang hanya karena ingin pelukan. Yang datang hanya karena sedang jenuh dengan sang pacar. Apakah saya hanya sekedar pelipur lara kalian saja? Bagaimana dengan lara saya? Siapa yang mau melipur?

Well, you all can go screw yourself up.Tapi sebelumnya, ijinkan saya berteriak: BRENGSEK!

A Paper Bag, A Joke, and A Friend

A paper bag filled with love
Sent for your familly at home
Screaming the words of confuseness

A joke and a laughter later
A friend said something that made me thinking it over

Oh what the hell
It's ended long ago anyway

Escape

Where the night ends
There I'll be sleeping
Not to think of you
And burn this love to ashes

I'm holding on to the feelings
You don't feel anymore

Pasti

Aku ada, aku mengerti
Ada bisa jadi, ada pasti
Karena hati tak bisa sembunyi
Dan setiap nafas terucap 'Sepi!'

Bertemu denganmu lagi
pasti akan seperti ini
Meskipun tak ingin berfikir
Tapi aku ada, aku tahu pasti

Dan kita akan melangkah pergi
Kita akan pura-pura benci
Menjauh tanpa coba pahami
Yakini itu cuma mimpi

Karena untukku dan untuk diri ini
Ada yang lain yang terbaik
Ingin menyangkal dan berkata mungkin
Tapi lebih baik kubilang pasti

Aku cukupkan, tak ingin lagi sakit hati

I Don't Even Want To

I don't want to try to understand anything
Not your 'hellos'
Neither our laughter

I don't want to think about it
Not even a single 'why'
I'll let it pass this time

And this silly smirk means
I don't even want to try

Take Care

I won't deny anything
I won't explain anything

Good bye.

Your Love Is Poison

I need to rest my mind
It's exhausting to think,
to think about you
Baby it's heartbreaking

Do all the things I've done
Mean a little something to you?
Or was those are nothing more
Nothing more but burdens?

Do I have a spot in your heart
Do I own a spot
That lies only for me
In your heart?

There' s a hole down there
each time I'm thinking of you
I'm sinking so deep
Hoping somehow I'll survive

Do I have a spot in your heart
Do I own a spot
That lies only for me
In your heart?

I love you deep
But your love is poison
Your love is suicidal
Your love is aching, but I enjoy the pain

.waktu itu tanggal 20 Mei 2005.

I Quit From Everything

I quit from not hoping

I quit from hoping

I quit from not trying

I quit from trying

I quit from not loving

I quit from loving

I quit from ingoring

I quit from caring

I quit from moving

I quit from being static

I quit from not thinking

I quit from thinking

I quit from being strong

I quit from being weak

I quit from you

I quit from them

I quit from smiling

I quit from crying

I quit from pretending

I quit from being real

I quit from not understand

I quit from understanding

I quit from being honest

I quit from making excuses

I quit from being somebedy else

I quit from being myself

Dalam Suatu Sunyi

Jika kau merindukanku
Akupun tengah merindukanmu
Jika kau tidak,
rinduku tetap untukmu
Aku seperti bintang mati
Sepi
Aku tanpa makna
Bermimpi berlari,
aku tidak terbangun
Maka aku tetap disini
Menanti?
Menanti.
Dan menjadi angin
Hampa, tanpa cerita
Aku.
Dirimu.
Rindu.
Cinta.
Omong kosong.
Tapi aku menunggu

*seperti saat tersenyum tersipu menatap semangkuk bubur ayam..

Over And Over Again

For some reasons beyond the doubt
It will always be a “why” ahead

We’re connected way too deep, sugar baby

Even if it’s only me.

Chicken

I don't know what to call you
But a gutless jerk