Mau Nulis...

..apa yah?

*bengong lagi*

Swinging.

Hello world

How things been going on out there?

Are the streets still the same?

And the light from sky craper

I miss being captivated by the fantasy within.

Strangely Familiar

I recognize this empty feeling
The hollowness that suddenly appears
I do try not to cry, though
That was my best effort to hold my tears

But the pain was strangely too familiar..

Cinta

Kekasihku,
Bolehkan aku memanggilmu cinta?
Hanya agar merasa damai
Sedikit saja, sedikit untukku
Biar resah ini menghilang

Kekasihku,
Izinkan aku memanggilmu cinta

Sekali ini saja

Jelaga Mimpi

Dia datang
Lalu memelukku
Tak berjanji, tidak pula ungkapkan cinta
Hanya berkata: tinggalkan aku
Bila seribu mimpi yang dia tawarkan
Boleh aku uraikan menjadi apapun yang ku mau
Maka jadilah ia: pelita
Aku beku, jadilah ia: hangat
Tidak, tidak kataku
Tapi inilah hatiku
Bukan tidak, katanya
Hanya, jangan bermimpi terjaga di sampingnya
Jangan dulu
Karena dia datang
Tapi belum tentu untukku

Aku Mau Dirayu

Rayu aku lagi
Seperti saat kita bermimpi
Dan dalam dekapmu
Dan dalam hela nafasmu
Dan seperti saat kita tertawa
Seperti saat aku tersenyum
Saat kau kecup aku
Seperti saat kau bilang, bukan selamat tinggal
Dan dalam harapan, yang kau minta ku enyahkan
Rayu aku lagi
Ketika aku sepi
Saat menangis diam-diam
Saat merasa mesra, tapi hampa
Saat rindu hanya tinggal biru
Dan dalam doaku
Dalam bisikan
Ketika angin malam mencumbu
Saat terjaga sampai pagi, seperti ini..

The Aftermath

I was singing 'Head Over Feet'
Though I wasn't too sure
But I kept repeating the chorus
Until I feel like I believe it

These what if's in my head
These no's versus these ignorances
I sang to myself:
"I couldn't help it, it's all your fault"

Really, it was too good to be true
And indeed it is
We'll be too perfect
If there's such thing as perfect

So I just shove the hopes away
Not even try to find the reason why
You brave enough to came clean
And that's enough for me

'Cuz however it'll be too good to be true
However we'll be too perfect

Wrong

Did you laways have those sparks in your eyes?
Did you always smile like that?
Did you always listen to me that careful?
Did you always laugh so sweet?

I never know, I never know
I think I was too busy looking for somebody else
Or perhaps I was too afraid to notice
If you ever noticed me

Did you always look at me that way?
Did you ever talk to me and make us laugh like crazy?
Did we ever live in a universe of you and me before?
A place where our conversation never went dry?

I didn't know, I didn't know
I guess I was too busy understanding somebody else
While all I need were never too far away
Not too hard to find if I wasn't try too hard

And when I'm aware of the butterflies in my stomach
All I can do is cursing the time
And wondering if she feels a slight of jealousy
When you mentioned my name

I am now trapped, and perfectly lost in your flirts
They were so flirtous almost like a joke
Or is it nothing more serious than merely a joke?
I need to know, I need to know

'Cuz even if this is so wrong
I've never felt so right like this for quite some times ..

And Then...

There will always be shadows
Even on the sunniest day..

There's No Such Things

No such things
As perfect love
Or match made in heaven
No such things
As wait forever
And here for you always
And definitely there is nothing
Like forgive and forget
So put the second chance behind
Because although there’s no such things as letting go completely,
But move on does exist.

Relapse Eps. 2

On the couch, in his arms.
Under the jackfruit tree, between the laughter.
In the house of memories, when I cried.
Behind the silent wall, with sweet kisses.

Shouted.
Low voice.
Murmured.
Pronounced clearly.
Seriously spoken.
Teasing tone.
Courageously uttered.
Whispered carefully.

It’s all felt the same when he said, “You’re the one I need”.

Rindu #02

Duhai wanita panutan
Kekasih Sang Manusia Terpilih
Akhlakmu adalah tempat belajarku
Karena ingin kupahami hidup, seperti kau simpulkan semua dalam langkahmu..

Rindu #01

Tadi malam
Aku bersimpuh
Kusadari rinduku masih menggebu
Dan kuyakin rinduku akan selalu menggebu

Untuk cinta yang tak terukur dalamnya..